i never knew solitude
could taste so sweet
that being only
with myself and no one else
could be as fulfilling
and being alone does
not automatically equate
to being terribly lonely

i've just done battle
with enormous demons
been taunted, haunted
baited, prodded,
fought with everything i had,
everything i knew,
bled till i could bleed no more,
argued till i was hoarse,
stood my ground while
beeing pushed, shoved aside

now i just feel too spent

and so i rest my head
in a while my heart would follow
its beating would eventually slow
until it is almost inaudible. . .

i probably won't stay here forever
i could never sit still for very long
but for now the quiet soothes me,
i'll just let her drown me in her comforting song