to her, she would never get to read this anyway. . .

i may never know
how or why
i fell as hard
as i did for you

if i close my eyes
and block every thought of you
if i keep my mind
from straying towards you
if i wipe your
sweetness from my lips
erase every memory we ever made
remove every trace
of longing, of wanting
the teasing, the haunting
if i fail to remember
the sound of your laughter
then maybe i'll be fine

for a little while
a fraction of a second
i really thought i was alright
i am okay, i have moved
away from you, i really did

but one look
and i am hooked again
one mention of your name
and i am floored again
i smell your hair
and i'm reeling again
i am floating again,
one smile
and i'm certain. . .

you, once more
have me under your spell. . .

oh well, :)