no matter how
far or how long
i keep running
no matter where
i try to go
into hiding
whatever i tell
myself there's
just no denying
i will never be
free of you
or your memory
you will always be
probably the best
part of me

i was always
pretty good at pretense
i could ignore
people until i get
so used to it
they stop existing
in my world
i could fill my head
with random thoughts
make myself busy
until there is no
more room left
for anyone else
to occupy
i could tune people out
i could rid myself
of every little thing
that would remind me
of the person
i am trying to forget

it has always worked
my strategy, always
saved me
but not this time,
not with you
not without
killing me too. . .