you used to
remind me to
never hold your
hand in public,
never kiss, hug,
stand too close
i couldn't help
but wonder if
you just didn't
want to be seen
next to me,
you were always
ever so cautious. . .
i forget from
time to time,
i grab your arm
let my hand slide down
till i am grasping yours
hoping you would not
notice anymore,
i steal kisses, in
dark corridors,
i hold on to you
a tiny bit longer
than i should
i tuck your hair,
touch your face
as often as i could
i figured you'd
get used to it
pretty soon (another tactic eh? hehehe)
sometimes you fail
to notice
that i'm doing
what you specifically told
me not to
but most of the
time you still
manage to remember
i just grow
quiet when you do that. . .
i never saw you
smile wider than
you did tonight
you ran, no, flew
in to my arms
and held me tightly,
in front of everyone else
please never tire
of loving me back,
i'm worth it,
you'll see
=)
2 comments:
the things i ask of you do not have anything to do with you love. it has everything to do with me. it's not that i am not comfortable with having you around and everyone seeing me with you, i'm just not that ready yet to fight the norm. i fully accept the path i chose but i still want a quiet life. i don't want to tread a path full of stones that would trip me, even though i know i can stand up, i would rather choose the path but avoid the clutter,,, just to prove my point that being a lesbian doesn't mean life has to be hard. people will accept me, as long as i do what i think is right. and i think that giving people the space to be comfortable as well is right, not just me being comfortable.
but don't you notice the change in me? yeah, i remember being too excited to see you last night. i remember rushing from the pantry when i got your sms, that you're waiting for me. i literally pressed the elevator buttons 5times hoping it would make the damn box move faster.
i miss you.
and i continue missing you.
i love you.
i hope that with the things i do, even with the things i don't do, this would be a fact that you know by heart. i love you.
To the highest level of cheeziness ito! But I really really like it!<3
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