I have had my share of losses
My share of heartbreaks, hence this blog
A place i can put into writing
All that i'm feeling
An attempt to bury all my emotions
To let it all go
Empty my heart, my head and my soul
An avenue where i could make sense
To all the madness
To all that ails and troubles me
My forever ally
A friend i always go back to
When all life's pain prove to be too much
Too sudden
Where i can throw away all that's been bothering me
My personal wall where i can rant
I can shout, i can pour myself out
And no one will judge me

My writing has always been my shield
A cozy hole i can crawl in
Who would comfort me and make me whole again








It is failing its job now

I don't think anyone or anything
Can console me now
I am in too deep nothing can lift me out now
Depression is eating me up and it is uncontrollable now
I do not want to take a minute to regroup
I wanna curl up and just die now
Stay hidden, as still as i can be
I have lost all the energy
There is nothing left to fight for
Not a thing left to salvage
No pride, no hope, no joy, not even a dull light

I am just so tired
So bloodied, so spent
I gave all i could
My heart my soul my body my head
All of me and then some
I put everything on the fucking line
And i came out empty

So god damned barren

Thank you for making me feel
So small and insignificant
For wringing all the joy
And bathing me in bitterness
If that was your intention
I congratulate you. . .
A job well done