i wish i were
someone else
someone who knows
when to call it quits
someone who can stop
and never look back
somebody so tough
that being alone
is just a walk in the park
unafraid
unruffled
someone who can
leave anytime she wants to
walk away from everything
without a second thought
someone who'll never
be swayed
by tears, pleas,
unspoken promises
who can say no
so easily, without hesitation
someone not scared
to feel hurt
or inflict pain

i keep saying
i'm not built this way
but there are days
when i think it would be safer
if i were