it's some sort
of a strange miracle
that i'm still breathing now
my heart is still
beating albeit so slowly
almost inaudible
it's still pumping blood
i know, 'cause mine's
trickling
little by little
draining my body
in a little while
i'll be numb again
and i like it that way
no pain, no heartache
just silent tears
forming, but i can't
let them drop
no i won't let them fall

i wish
i could wake up now
i could make it all
go away
i wish my world
can right itself again
but i can't
this is not a nightmare
this is my reality
i wish i could make it
just stop, please stop