in retrospect
should i have
done things
a little differently?
should i have been
a little less eager
a little more patient
a little more cynic
less optimistic?
should i have
been a little less open
much more secretive
pretended i was
a bit more
of an enigma?
would i have been
more interesting if i did?
would i have
prevented you from
feeling ever so restless
could i have kept you
from getting too bored,
from moving on
if i could've been
a lot less intense?
could i have made you stay
if i had chosen
an entirely different way?
or was i a failure
from the get go?
bound to crash
and burn,
a lovely flame

and knowing
that everything
would've eventually
died a silent death
would i have still gone ahead?

in a heartbeat, yes