i've been
pushed, shoved
brought to the edge
limits tested
i've been fed
a little bit
of heaven
then forced
to swallow
a somewhat bitter pill
i've been cuddled
then without
a moment's notice
been left
to fend for myself
given a glimpse
of what paradise
must look like
then had the
gates slammed
in my face
keys thrown away
i was drowning
then i saw land
but it must
have been just a mirage
'cause i never stopped
swimming yet i
am still so
far away from the shore
i thought
i saw a vision
must've been
just a figment
of my overactive imagination

would i lose hope?
just give in
let the ocean
swallow me?
put me out
of my misery?
i don't think i can
heaven may be
too far away from me
but i know that
it's still somewhere out there
just beyond my reach
i'm not quitting now. . .