shall i consider
it a curse
that i always
get attracted to
people who are
too far out
of my league?
that i always
try to touch
everyone who has
a neon sign that
says off limits?
that i shy away
from people
within my reach
and look ahead
to those who are
running towards the
other direction?
why am i so intent
to fight for
what most would tag
lost causes?
do i have a death wish
of some sort?
complications have a
way of fascinating me
just as soon as it
becomes impossible
i try harder

something in my brain
must have short circuited
or like someone said
i may be a sucker for pain

but simple is just
not as thrilling
not as satisfying

do you notice my pattern?

here i am again
trying to justify
why i'm starting to
defy what should be
and begin to believe in
what might be. . .

tsk, i never learn, do i?