worn me down like a road, i did everything you told; worn me down to my knees, i did everything to please you, but you can’t stop thinking about her. . .
someone asked me earlier if i could justify continuing to love someone who obviously do not love me. i did not answer. no, it’s not that i did not know what to say. nor was it because i did not have a retort. i just chose to remain silent.
yeah me, silent.
that is something new right?
i never believed love could be explained much more justified. it is something felt, heard, seen, smelled, tasted. there are no words you can use to describe it. i have always sought the why’s out of everything but i am speechless when asked why i love. there are no textbooks that will tell you the reason for it. if someone will claim that they have an answer they are lying. flat out making up stuff.
which brings me to this point; why do i find it impossible to stop being in love with you?
i don’t even know why i do. how in the hell will i know how to un-love? am i doing this to piss you off? of course not. there are easier ways to do that. am i making it my mission to annoy you? definitely not. i want to be on your good side, if i make you despise me at times i’d like you to know that, that was never my intention. is it a game to me? hell no. i play to win, this match is too big for me there is not even a glimmer of hope that i’d come out on top on this one.
then why do i continue?
like i said i have no idea.
all i know is that i feel strongly about you. you have told me no, several times, i have tried to stop countless times, no such luck i’m afraid. what i want you to understand though is that, i am not asking you to love me back. that’s too tall an order for you, i know.
bunny spears, a good friend of mine said it best. loving is for the one feeling the emotion. don’t mistake it for me being selfless, it is actually the opposite. i am being selfish, i just wanna feel. and you, all you have to do is stand your ground. i will not attempt to break you. i might push hard but it is not to make you see things my way. i just want everything i feel to get out.
do not worry. i am human. i do get tired. i do bleed. i have a boiling point, i have an edge that when i get to i stop.
just stand where you are. i am so close to giving up. it will not be too long.
stand your ground, that is all i ask. . .
someone asked me earlier if i could justify continuing to love someone who obviously do not love me. i did not answer. no, it’s not that i did not know what to say. nor was it because i did not have a retort. i just chose to remain silent.
yeah me, silent.
that is something new right?
i never believed love could be explained much more justified. it is something felt, heard, seen, smelled, tasted. there are no words you can use to describe it. i have always sought the why’s out of everything but i am speechless when asked why i love. there are no textbooks that will tell you the reason for it. if someone will claim that they have an answer they are lying. flat out making up stuff.
which brings me to this point; why do i find it impossible to stop being in love with you?
i don’t even know why i do. how in the hell will i know how to un-love? am i doing this to piss you off? of course not. there are easier ways to do that. am i making it my mission to annoy you? definitely not. i want to be on your good side, if i make you despise me at times i’d like you to know that, that was never my intention. is it a game to me? hell no. i play to win, this match is too big for me there is not even a glimmer of hope that i’d come out on top on this one.
then why do i continue?
like i said i have no idea.
all i know is that i feel strongly about you. you have told me no, several times, i have tried to stop countless times, no such luck i’m afraid. what i want you to understand though is that, i am not asking you to love me back. that’s too tall an order for you, i know.
bunny spears, a good friend of mine said it best. loving is for the one feeling the emotion. don’t mistake it for me being selfless, it is actually the opposite. i am being selfish, i just wanna feel. and you, all you have to do is stand your ground. i will not attempt to break you. i might push hard but it is not to make you see things my way. i just want everything i feel to get out.
do not worry. i am human. i do get tired. i do bleed. i have a boiling point, i have an edge that when i get to i stop.
just stand where you are. i am so close to giving up. it will not be too long.
stand your ground, that is all i ask. . .
1 comment:
how do you un-love someone?
when you figure it out, let me know.
so far i have only been successful loving them another way... as a friend. but to complete stop loving them or reduce my feelings to not caring at all... i don't think i could.
until i figure that out i will do the only thing that keeps me sane - hate her for not loving me.
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