disappointment
has its way
of creeping up to me
when i least
expect it to
just when i thought
everything is sunny
fine and dandy
it surprises me
with gray clouds
and devastating winds
destroying everything
in its path
leaving nothing
but havoc in its wake
one minute i am alright
i can breathe
i could even smile
it wipes the grin
and leaves me
with a smirk
a bruise, a mark
that makes me
shudder, wince
in agony

i'm an eternal hopeful
i see the best
in people's eyes
never minding that
i would get shattered
that way

i should've counted on it,
for fate to shove
me into yet another
let down
it always has
it never fails
to drown me in
such sweet misery
i am tired
of constantly
believing that
something better
will eventually come my way
that a lovely soul
would come and
wrap me in her
warm embrace

i should open
my lidded eyes
i should, for once
start to realize
that maybe, if i never
hope, never trust
then i won't have
to ever feel resentment
that i would never
feel the urge
to break down

yeah, right
i should just stay
here in the shadows
and maybe if i'm lucky
the bleeding would stop
in time to still save me