do not stand
too close to me
and think that
you can reach
out and touch me
do not breathe in
my suffocating air
do not look at me
as if i am different
do not think of me
as one of the good ones
do not make the
mistake of thinking
that i am here
to stay
i could leave
in a snap and
never look back

i could pretend
that i am so into you,
that you are special,
second to none
i could make you feel
loved, treasured, cherished
like i won't be able
to live if you left
like i would be shattered
at the thought of losing you
like i am capable
of bleeding, my heart breaking
my words will caress
you, feed you
i can create an illusion,
a world where you
are the center
make you believe
that everyting revolves
around you
then in an instant
wake you up and make you see
that really, you are just
one of so many

i am cruel
i am unfeeling
i could play you
i could confuse you
i am cold hearted
i am invincible
no one can touch me
nobody influences me
i can be alone
and i will be alright. . .

this is who i wish to be
then maybe, just maybe,
i won't suffer as much