to pink on her 26th birthday

i envy your tears
as they course down
your silken cheeks
tracing the intricate
path i long to touch,
as each salty drop
reaches your full lips
the tip of your tongue
darts out to catch
a stray one, and i
hold my breath

the rain maddens me
as it sprays tiny driblets
that hit your
upturned face
flowing steadily
water mixes with each
crystal bead,
it covers your weeping
to an onlooker it
will seem as though
you are worshipping the mist
taking pleasure
as it wipes away
your worries
cleanses you
it could inundate
half the earth
but it still won't
wash away your pain

the wind whips your
dress around and
it frustrates me
it hugs you in a
way i've always dreamed
i could, invisible
yet as tight as
any arms would ever do
such dainty figure
amid the raging storm
it looks as though
they could break you
unhinge you, fracture you

i am jealous of
what makes you ache
you hold it closer
than i could ever reach
you keep it deeper
than i could ever fathom
i can only look on, a quiet
spectator, as you bleed
i am brimming in anger
as i can only watch you shatter