did you feel my absence?
did you detect my reticence?
did you sense that i have
been slowly , painfully
feeding the gap that has
increasingly widened between us?
it hasn't been easy,
every step back
feels like a deep gash
added to the multitude
of wounds i have accumulated
each time i look away
is another memory
erased, wiped away
never to be visited again
for fear of rehashing
broken dreams, shattered promises
i had such high hopes. . .

but they were just that,
hopes,
it had been nipped
even before it had blossomed
wings clipped
even before it could
take off, fly, soar,

did you even notice
that we failed miserably?
i doubt it,
i doubt you even cared