i wish i could
close my eyes
so i won't see,
your pained expression,
the longing, the wanting
i never meant
to make you feel trapped
i thought if i gave you
all that i had,
everything i could possibly offer
i would be enough
but i'm not, am i?
you think i don't sense it?
your wandering look,
you shivered just now,
i don't blame you
we have indeed gone cold
no more burning flame,
that threatened to consume us
the sparks that flew
each time we touched
are mere ashes
doused, bit by bit
was it neglect?
did i forget at some point
to remind you how i loved you?
was it boredom?
have i grown dull, dear?
they say opposites attract,
but after the dust settles
is it possible that
they would also repel?
lose the enchantment,
the fascination, just die
a slow, soundless death?

i used to know
every sound you make,
every smile, every nuance
i don't recognize the one
you just threw my way,
was it meant for me?
i miss you, love,
i pine for you
even when you are here,
beside me, you are so distant

can we go home now?
so i can shake you,
shout at you,
make you bleed,
just to get even
a slight reaction,
you never left,
but i don't feel you here

yes, you hold my hand. . .
but do i still hold your heart?