i should be sleeping now.
you asked me to go to bed now and i shut down my laptop.
i can't keep my eyes open and my yawns are chasing each other.
i couldn't let today pass though, without atleast
trying to write something.
not today, of all days. . .

i love you. . .

you caught me by surprise.
my heart almost leapt out of my chest.
i was wide awake at almost four am
wondering if universe is playing tricks on me.
more than two years.
i have waited for more than two long years.
i never expected to hear you say them
i was happy knowing that you might have
thought about saying something close enough,
i wasn't prepared for what happened next. . .

i am beyond falling, i have fallen long ago, i just did not realize it until right this very moment --- your exact words.

did i tell you how happy you made me then?
was i able to describe how the years seemed to fall away, they failed
to matter anymore, those moments in between losing and finding you again.
all my focus shifted to what you were telling me then,
how you felt all too empty, until we were finally together.
i went still, i did not want to move, i even tried holding my breath
for fear that any sudden movement would tip the scales
and unsettle everything . . .

that was exactly a month ago.
when you came back and changed my life once more.
i do not know if or when the mood would change, it might, i'm hoping it wouldn't

in the event that, like everything else, this too is temporary,
no worries love.
i've had a month.
it might not be as long as what i have planned, what i would've wanted.
but it would be longer than what most people get.

lifetimes can be lived in a single day.

a month won't be too bad right?

i love you mine.
here's to one month. . .

and here's to hoping we could add a few decades more =)