i have to start writing again
but this time it should be about something other than you
i know this is my blog
i can spill my guts and nobody has the right to shut me up
but i am tired
of wringing my emotions
and converting them into words
that might mean something to you
i am all spent up
drained, empty
it is not your fault
i have constantly said that
i was the one who had everything mixed up
i got lost
i mistook fantasy and thought it was part of my reality
you were always clear, crystal
i was the one who muddled it
i am so sorry

so go on
stay happy
i should be writing a different story by now

but for the record
you did not break my heart. . .
i did all on my own