these things i'll never say. . .


and we are back. . .
to being so silent
did i say something wrong?
made another bad turn?
did i offend you in some way?
too eager? too hard headed?

i do not want
to get too used
to not speaking to you,
not being there for you
not caring, not thinking about you

i am so scared
that one day you won't
even remember i'm just here
that you'd forget
that i'm just waiting for you dear

have you slipped away?

i don't feel you anymore,
the one thing
i've always wanted. . .
i can't see you anymore. . .
i wanna run after you. . .

will you please stay right there
so i could maybe reach you
do not go anywhere,
i won't lose you,
i just cant, lose you, not yet. . .