you can say what you want but it won't change my mind
i'd feel the same, about you
and you can tell me your reasons but it won't change my feelings
i'd feel the same, about you


chicken. . .

what is it about love that scares the shit out of most people?

is it the responsibility that comes with it? hmmmmmmm. . . maybe. you see, when someone loves you, you quickly assume that you have to give what you receive. in a perfect world it is safe to want that. let me ask you though, do we live in a perfect world?

nah. most definitely not. we only wish that we do. so what's my point? between two people in love who loves more or who gives less is not supposed to be an issue. we are not supposed to even keep track of what was sacrificed, what we got out of it or what was never offered. we are built differently and so my best might not neccessarily equal yours. you gave it your all though, that's what should matter.

is it the committment? you know what they say, it's easier to catch a rooster when it's pinned down (it's a filipino saying, i just translated it loosely). when you are with someone temptation always seem to be after you. you begin to question your choice, did i pick the best one?

of course, thinking you had a choice is what gets you in trouble. you never do. love picks you. and whomever was "fated" (i know you do not believe in all that but just humor me, it's my blog hahaha) to you is your best bet. someone else would always come. someone more beautiful, smarter, funnier but there would only be one person who's perfect for you. who might not be everyone's definition of the best but next to you, she makes the greatest sense.

is it failure? you have suddenly developed a super power that allows you to look into the future and you are certain that you won't make it. you turned psychic and so you are predicting that whatever you do it will never work out.

funny. i always say that nothing is certain. even nostradamus was not able to tell when he would die. so what makes you so sure that what you have or almost have will never last? everything is a risk. it's equal parts failure and success. if you do not even try because you are too terrified of failing, then that makes you foolish. at least give yourself a chance. give the other person a chance to prove you wrong.

i am not as brave as you think.

i am as scared of this as you are. maybe even more so because i have seen the view from the other side. i almost had you but you were swiftly snatched away. i've tasted defeat. it was bitter. i had been shattered. i have more to lose now than i have ever had before. . .

yet i am willing to jump in again. head first.

it's not gonna be a bed of roses. it would be wrong of me to assure you that it would be. it would be unfair to let you believe i know all the answers, i don't. . .

but maybe if you break free, we will find out?

so what do you say?