ON GREAT LOVES


does it have to be one?

can it not be two or three or can it not be everytime you fall?

(maloloka ka nun malamang hahahaha) isa-isahin natin ha?

how do you define great? what are the parameters? does she have to look a specific way? act a specific way? do you have certain characteristics that are to be met? a set of criteria before one love could be categorized as "great"? more importantly, who defines great? do you? does she? or is it everyone else who determines if it is great or not? different strokes for different folks eh?

ok, for the nitty gritty. my view.

i do not think that there could be more than one great love.

it is called 'great' for a reason. kinda like "the ultimate" . there can only be one. a lot of people go through life and leave it without ever meeting "her" it would be too foolish to expect to find "her" twice, in one lifetime at that. of course i am not belittling the other loves that may come your way while waiting for the "great" one. there are no regular loves, each one is special, at least for me they are. the one thing that seperates your greatest from the other ones is probably its intensity. the amount of effort, of work, you are willing to exert. how much of yourself you are willing to give and the length of time it takes you to forget her, should your story end up in tragedy. that is, if you are capable of forgetting her. that's what makes it so hard. if it would take a lifetime to forget your one great love, how do you expect to find another one? see what i mean?

now, the age old question: have i met her?

hmmmmm. . .

yes. i have met her. a few years back. we met at a time when everything was a mess. life seemed to be moving faster than we were. everything was hazy. yeah, the timing was crazy. but these things are never planned. it always happens when you least expect it. the outcome would have to depend on how you would react. i guess i reacted poorly (hahahaha).

i lost her. even before we could begin, she walked away. i don't really blame her. the timing was off. it was no longer just between her and me, other lives were involved. the only way to come out of it was to cut everything off, a clean break. i have always understood what she did and why she did it. it was painful but i never hated her, i never could. she had her reasons.

and so i lost my one great love. i don't even know if we were given a fair chance. all i know is that although i would fall in love again (i'm easy, hahahaha), countless times, i would still have an empty spot that only she can fill. although i won't forever be empty, i never can be complete. whoever comes into my life, would always be compared to her. and even if we never meet again, she will always be with me, in me, all over me.

so does my story end here?

nah.

you see, i was very innocently browsing the net one time, and then i came across an invitation. yeah it was facebook, someone was asking permission to be added as my friend. i blinked once, twice, guess who it was?

she's back. my one great love. i do not know what's gonna happen. i do not have a clue what to do. the only thing i do know is that i am not gonna let her walk away again. no siree.

i'll keep you guys posted =)