infant,

it's 3:30 am

i should be sleeping

i have read, re-read, and yeah gone over all the lines i wrote.
it still did not sound right.
not that i did not know what to say.
i knew all along.
i just did not know how to say them.
without sounding condescending, or patronizing.
without making you ill with cheesyness and all that crap.

you are the one i always wanted.
the one i wished for.
who i bothered whoever it is up there just to ask him to give you to me.
the one i lost.
who found me again.
who i do not know what i would do should i lose again.

i know i am not perfect
not even in the same zip code, or country, or whatever.
but i foolishly wish i were
maybe if i am you would just stay there.

you are not different.
being different means you can be compared to someone or something else.
you can't be.
you are the only one of your kind.

i'm sorry.
i am supposed to be good at this
but i just turned real bad.
i am wide awake at almost 4 am thinking of ways
to get you to see that you are unlike anyone else i have come across with.

maybe i should stop.
i love you.
and i will love you, the best way i know how.
do not ask me why, do not ask me how long.

i just do.
deal with it.